Creativity is a funny thing. Everyone says you are either born with it or not. I do believe that everyone was created by a creative God that gave a little bit of that creativity to us. That creativity, unfortunately, is lost to either apathy, distraction, or just life getting in the way. Creativity must be flexed and worked like a muscle or skill. We must practice and force creativity upon us. The last few months I feel like I've forgotten this and have had to start up my creative engines again.
I've slowly let the stresses of life to creep into my process and disrupt it. I wasn't passionate about certain projects or photoshoots. I lost a draw to photograph the things I once loved to photograph and create. This may have just been the winter season, but this time felt different. I felt an apathy and almost depression move in and block my inspirations. I didn't look forward to photographing anything, every time I booked a portrait shoot it felt more like an annoyance than an opportunity to create a unique piece of art.
A couple months ago I photographed my first fashion editorial (Picture of Beauty) which forced me into a short state of tenacity and drive for a great image. Unfortunately, that quickly died off and I came to the realization that the reason why I was feeling this way and why I was not getting any work I wanted to do was because I stopped creating stuff for myself. Instead, I was just doing work for others and letting my clients tell me what to shoot next. It took me a few months to realize this, but I no longer was flexing my own creativity, shooting my own work, telling stories I cared about.
One of the passion projects that I started early was called Creative Space. The goal of it was to showcase local creatives I lived around who were doing awesome work. I really enjoyed this as it connected me with local creatives and gave me lots of additions to my portfolio. Until this week my last portrait I shot for this was in September, almost 6 months ago. I’ve gone half a year without pursuing my project that I once felt so passionate about. I went out a little bit earlier this year doing street and urban photographer around downtown Louisville and the waterfront to kickstart some creativity in me. This definitely helped but what I needed to do was just jump back into my Creative Space project again. Last week I put a call for portrait subjects out on my social media and connected with a few different creatives. This has been the first few weeks of seeing the light out of this weird unmotivated tunnel.
I’m still going with this and reaching out to several other creatives. If you’re reading this and are a creative I would love to photograph you for this project. Please fill out this form and I will get with you as soon as I can (Be My Subject) .The ultimate goal of this project would be a simple celebration of the creative community I am around reflected in a small book.
If you would like to be apart of this please fill out the form here: Be My Subject